back to the way how it was

Tomorow, we will start our face to face classes and just looking at my class schedule makes me churn because I'm now in college and our profs told us that there will be no term this time so I will be taking 9 subjects with me for the whole semester starting this January up until May,,,,what the fuck. I hate this country so much, is it possible to feel homesick for a place you had never been in before? What if all this sadness is just from me feeling homesick but who am I kidding to? I'm slowly getting gobbled my anxiety as these days slowly pass by, I still don't have any idea what theory I should propose under my TOP class,,,man im scarred...