January Update: „Lazyness“ and lots of work

Selam yall!

Here is a little january update: its going bad, I hate january so much..I cant express the lazyness and how much it affects me but I gotta tell you guys, my lazyness just doesnt come out of nowhere: In one of my older blogs, I told a little bit about my apprenticeship job as a nurse (10 weeks, I already finished 7!) and its soo exhausting. In Germany, when you do a short time apprenticeship job as a school-student, you dont get any money. I work 8 hours a day and have to walk home, and its a bit far away from the place I work. I dont work in a hospital but I guess an „Old peoples home“, owned by an catholic institution (I am muslim 😭, but tbh nobody cares what religion you are, I just think its funny cus I see crusefixes and Images of jesus everywhere. You can tell by that from which state in germany I am). I like my job, but as I said, sometimes its hard, but I can see myself as a future nurse. But I gotta finish school first. 

Btw school ahaha yea I see myself failing at school. To be honest its not that hard but mathematics is just so crazy for me like I hope I dont fail at it and get through this year. Its just I am constantly tired and have to think about work a lot.  I have lost a lot of creativity and motivation and our teachers pressure us a lot. I thought about changing school and I really need to talk with my sister about it. I am just scared because I know what she would say. 

Anyways, I hope I can find some peace of mind and start studying properly, I really dont wanna fail but I also want to finally be fine and alright with my school and working life. I am perfectly fine with my family life hmdl, since my grandma died, me and my family got closer and I really like that.

I hope yalls january is not going as bad as mine. I wish yall a good day or evening xx 💟

Ajola//14.01.2023