anguish (vent)

im just sick of EVERTHING at this poinnnt. im sick of being surrounded by my friends, who actually find love... when my soulmate dumps me. i was devastated!!!! ever since then i dont think ill ever love again.. and its been so long and its just

NOT FAIR

but i guess thats what i deserve right? for trying my best in life? for doing everything i ever could for her?

i guess so.

and what about my crippling anxiety, depression and BURNING envy for the people who have what i want but cant have. living lives i dream about. but i guess the universe has other fucking plans for me because fuck me i guess

sorry idk this is ranting about shit

thx for reading i guess