12/21/22 - 12/22/22

I really dont know what to say. Everything seemed like it was going swimmingly and now it feels like my world is crashing into itself. I suppose ill start with claire. Today i found out that i was right back when i distanced myself from her, cuz she was messing with some white boy who i told her was an abuser and talking about me to him behind my back. Shorty was my best friend for like a year and a half and was there for me when my ex cheated on me, and now i find out that she was snake for all that time and lied to me throughout that entire course. And worst of all gave me up for some dude she didnt know because she was |-|0rny. And bro ended up SA ing her as well so now i feel horrible for not being there for her funnily as it sounds. I confronted her bout it and she admitted it but she wanted to get all proper and political. She blocked now but i think im done in the way of relationships because if i couldnt trust her i cant trust nobody. Got me looking at my homies differently too mane i gotta stay in the crib and away from everybody cuz dont nobody got me but me im real life sick. I almost threw up and i dont think imma eat for a while. Or sleep. At this point i might start doing drugs or something cuz ion think i can take much more. And this little trust fund baby rocking an america first andrew tate shirt thinks he’s hard bullying gay people so i dissed him on my story and he tryna report me to the school instead of backing up all that he was talking and scrapping. But i cant strike first because those white people gonna make an example out of me. Hopefully i got into Howard because my decision came back today and i cant deal with white people anymore dawg im at my limit. Looks like i gotta change track 9’s name to redacted because i loved her wit my soul and wrote it about her but i don't want to give her that satisfaction. Ig SGP was right man you really cant trust these |-|03s cuz they not just gon snake you, but they gon drag it and make you go insane before handing you a strap and making you put yourself out of your misery.