12/17/22

I spent like half the day in bed listening to Blur and the newest Nezzus album. I was playing Watch Dogs as well cuz that hipster Chicago lowkey fit the vibe. Its been a minute so it was kinda refreshing. I was also surprised at how good See You L8ter was cuz i thought nezzus would have to be ass for opium and lonely to have sorta left him behind. Thats why i ride solo though cuz imma die before that happens to me. Its crazy to me how we as black people let a genre that was supposed to be a complete protest against censorship and white control become completely regulated by the same hipsters i was shooting in watch dogs and start selling out our own day ones for the sake of capitalistic profit. And then have the nerve to believe that any sort of billionaire has any of our best interests in mind when it comes to this shit. My goal before anything is to put an end to that cuz it aint no reason adam22 should be in the position to make money off pitting hood niggas and hoes against each other like dogs for the sake of profit. Regardless i got up and washed my sheets since i was rlly just stewing for an hour, texted claire, waited like 12 hours for a response so i was all sad but i recorded a song so that gave me a reason to leave the house and get on my shit. Then i tried to watch blade runner 2049 but fell asleep. Ill prolly do that right now. Claire hit me back tho so maybe ill just repeat yesterday. I gotta master convincing myself i dont care and doing all that weird ass lana del rey bullshit to keep myself sane but idk if my sanity is worth my dignity (oooh so deep ik look at me im a fucking poet).