12/16/22, 0:17

i want to try writing a book. i dont think itll be very good. but i want to write based on my experiences. not an autobiography, but my experiences, my emotions. i want to write about being a young adult; leaving childhood behind but struggling with it. struggling with the fact that i wont wake up and be 8 again, i cant wake up and be 8 again. that i have to keep growing up. i hate who i was as a kid, and i look back with nostalgia and regret. but i cant change it. but maybe if i daydream enough, i can, at least in a way that maybe i can fake memories. i also want to include the loneliness of growing up. waking up alone everyday, sitting in your bed with your head hanging, trying to get yourself to face everything and everyone and your room is dark, and you want to stay with the dark. maybe it wont be so bad one day.