Fever

Started writing: 11:42 PM

      I got a fever today, and ended up skipping school. I'm super fucked because I have to stay home tomorrow as well, and today + tomorrow a really big project for science was due. It's completed, I just needed to present it. Honestly, I didn't even want to present it. It's embarrassing. We're supposed to make rockets using water bottles and most of my rocket is made of paper and tape. It looks so dumb. The kids in my science class suck as well, so I would've gotten bullied for it. As much as I want to get a good grade, I'm scared of being bullied. My science teacher is the only reason it hasn't happened yet, He just brings me my work to my desk so that I don't have to get up and embarrass myself by doing anything dumb on accident. I hate being stuck in a class with kids who doubt I can do anything, and are convinced I fail at everything. Some of the kids even bullied me in middle school. Anyways, back to my fever. I find it funny I got a fever because the day before getting it, I googled how to fake being sick. Turns out that I didn't need to. I spent the day on the couch, snuggling one of my cats and eating popsicles. I also started watching Wednesday with my mom. It's good and I did partially like it, I'm just not very interested in it. After that I ate ice cream and watched Edward Scissorhands. It's my favorite movie, I love it. I even learned that the neighborhood in it is a real place, and that the actor who does Kim also does Joyce from Stranger Things. Stranger things is one of my favorite shows, I started watching it last year with my dad. I really liked Eddie Munson's character in season 4, but the fandom ruined it for me. I miss the old Stranger Things fandom ngl- I loved it. Anyways, back to my fever AGAIN (I keep getting distracted lol) I was fucking miserable all day. Everything hurt, and now the back of my throat itches really bad. I want to get another popsicle to help, but my parents want me to sleep. Obviously that didn't happen because here I am, probably writing one of my longest entries so far, listening to an overstimulation playlist, browsing Pinterest, and reading fan fiction. Although, I should probably work on my missing homework, since the semester ends Friday and I'm failing two classes. I'll work on it tomorrow. I have all day to work, anyways. Right now it's nighttime, it's quiet and I just want to be by myself. I was also texting my S/O, but I think he fell asleep or something because he stopped responding, and none of my friends are awake either (As they should, they have school tomorrow, but I don't need to sleep cause I'm sick, and get to skip school tomorrow, I don't give a fuck if it's a weekday). Also, I had another sexuality and gender identity crisis, and now I'm transmasc nonbinary and MLM (also greysexual). I'm so cool /s. Anyways, I'll write tomorrow (possibly, if I get time).

Stopped writing: 12:00 AM