Love

my first love wasn’t my first boyfriend 

he wasn’t even my first crush 

my first love

was the boy who looked at me a little too long 

to be my friend 

the boy who I stayed on the phone with 

until it was too late to sleep

he was the one who was always too close 

for my boyfriend to like 

but far enough 

to never be one 

the boy who would be the biggest lesson 

because he was the biggest heartbreak 

& the boy who I search for 

in everyone else