Overstimulation

Started writing: 12:24 PM

      I can't fucking do this right now. I'm overstimulated. Today has been terrible. I just want to go home and hug my cat. Nothing bad has happened, it's how my weekend that has been affecting me. I just wanna wrap myself in my blankets and stay there, just me, my cat, and my stuffed animals all in the dark together. I can't do this. There's so many sounds and so many people. I want to cry. I know the moment I walk in that goddamn door my parents won't even let me put my stuff down and they'll be asking me to clean the whole fucking house for them. I just want a fucking break. I'm tired and exhausted, I just want to rest. I want someone to hold me and lie to me by saying that it'll be okay. I'm so tired of hearing it but it means so much to me. It's always a lie, it's never been the truth. Whenever someone says that to me they're really just telling me to shut up, and that they could care less about my problems. I can't be mad at them for it, I understand. I wouldn't want me to keep talking. I'd tell me the same exact thing. But it always feels so comforting to hear those words. I bet if my cat could talk, she'd say It'll be okay.

Stopped writing: 12:33 PM