Elliot

So like I'm kind of sad that Elliots only going to be snapping me and Nat once a day. I honestly don't know how I'm going to handle this. I'm so used to being able to annoy him but now I can't. I really want to tell Elliot how I feel about him but I don't know how to yet. I know Nat told me to give it around a month. And I will, I mean it I will. I promise I will but in the same way I do want to go and just kiss him. He's so fucking cute to me! OMFG! You have no idea how special he is to me. He honestly makes me feel so happy. But again I do not see what all of my friends see when it comes to me and him liking each other. He keeps telling me that he doesn't like Nat anymore and I can't really bring myself to believe him. Only because he twats her the same way that he would when he liked her. But the feelings might not be there and he's just being him. I don't know. But the way that people around me are so easy to see that me and Elliot like each other and I can't make me so mad. But in the same way every time that I think someone doesn't like me, they end up being deeply in love with me. But like I feel like one thing that would bring us all together quicker is if I do end up investing in a tattoo machine. I know for a fact that me and nat are going to use my cash one week to get our noses pierced. I honestly just love him so much, he is like my everything but he said that we could get matching tattoos and I am completely and totally down if I'm being honest. I will buy the kit without them knowing one week, start practicing and eventually tell them that I have one, then we all get matching tattoos. Elliot told me and Nat that he would rather get a tattoo than a piercing and I'm fine with it. It's not gonna make or break me one week. I have honestly been able to do the best thing in the world and ration out my money. But no matter what next week I'm buying tickets to an emo nite. Then after that I'm getting one of those budget folder things off of etsy because I want to. But back to Elliot people and not just Nat and her man, keep telling me to just kiss Elliot one day and see what happens but I also feel like that would be a little over the top. I don't really care how close we ever get minus dating, that will always be out of the picture. I count that as sexual harassment (I'm being drop dead) because the person doesn't know or what if he doesn't like me, then we have the awkward situation. I love that my friends see what I wish I could but that's not really how quickly good things move. I am honestly so close to just talking to Elliot about who he likes but in the same way i know I'm too big of a bitch to really ask. I really want to though, next time me, Nat and Elliot all sleep over at my house, I'm gonna ask him about it during truth or dare. I'll write down some really juicy truth or dares. I will find games for us to start playing during these weekends. Imma go do that.

<3 Kayden