Boys and Sex ramble

So turns out to other guys that arent my friends. Im actually kimd of hot to them because tomorrow after school Im supposed to be going over to this guys house to hook up. So like......i dunno how thats gonna go. Im a virgin and not expirenced with men of any sort of way but slay on my end. I really want to date Elliot and not gonna lie was kinda hoping that me and him would yk hook up but we haven't yet sadly. But like me and him are really good friends and I think people are seeing more things than i am. The ONLY reason I say that is because my mom pulled me aside and asked me if things between me and any of my friends (Elliot or Nat) and I were getting close enough to want to fuck. Like my mom was being drop dead and saying, "You promise that i shouldnt have to worry about you having boys over at our house Kayden. You swear to me that i dont need to worry about that.".  Either way, if me and Elliot do eventually hook up, its gonna be at his house. I like how everyone in our little trio is getting fucked this week. Elliot got laid on Saturday. Nat got laid today and Im gettong laid tomorrow. This is really what our trio has come to. There is no way. The only reason Im nervous about that guy is because sex is a spiritual level of bonding and thats the only issue i see with it. Having a child isnt really a me issue. If i do end up pregnant, boo fucking who ill just kill myself before i have the baby or go to the hospital and see what they can do. 50/50. Or i could just own up to my own actions on that way but i dont think ill be doing that anytime soon. I think about that all of the time. What happens if i have sex and get pregnant, domt know who the father is and then tell someone in our house. See what the fuck they do to me, I would probably get my phone searched and have everything look through so they could find out lead suspects. I dunno. I NEED TO TELL YALL ABOUT LAST NIGHT! Me, Elliot and Nat all spent the night at my house like normal and bruh. Shit was so much fun. So first Nat came in my room randomly and woke me up, was not expecting it but it worked. Then she called Elliot and had hin come over, he was going to either way. Her there or not. When he came over we just kinda hung out until i found out that my weed had come in the mail. Shit had me so happy. I really didnt know if it was going to come in or not but it did. Me and Elliot smoked but Nat didnt until later on. We did that, went to the park, went to a kroger and then back to my house. My mom took us to a walmart on the way to her work and we stole things. Got eyed by all of the workers but i dont care. We left and when we got to my house smoked more. Mind you throughout this entire night, i was there taking huge bong rips. We ended up watching The Conjuring 2 and it was so funny. The amount of unneeded commentary was so fucking funny. The entire movie was straight up funny. But the entire movie, elliot was laying on my legs. Man made himself comfortable on me. I even asked him to sit up so i could do a couple of things and went i sat back down he laid back on my legs. I am so deeply in love with Elliot its mind blowing. I honestly think the only reason i actually said yes to me and that guy hooking up tomorrow was to make Elliot jealous. We all getting fucked this week oml. I know Im super jealous of his new body. Wish I was her ngl. Im so deeply in love with him im covering it up with drugs and fucking other people that i dont know. Im becoming the teen that everybody in this house has waited for. Its not as bad as it could be right now. I honestly couldve already been fucking pregnant so ha. I just want Elliot so fucking badly. I want everything about him. I want him with me at all times. Hw is mine in my eyes and always will be abd I will not atabd to see hin with another person or him to start dating another person thats not me. I would drop him right then and there or make them breakup somehow. I am that type or person. 

Thats all my ramble for right now. 


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