hyperfixations.

main points

i thought i would blog about hyperfixations and dealing with them as someone who can hyperfixate on anything and everything (while having almost no one to talk to).

okay so i have two hyperfixations (my chem and saw), both of these pieces of media have saved my life. hyperfixations are different for everyone. i once had a major hyperfix on sherlock and had everything sherlock themed and also travelled to london to go to a museum. some hyperfixation can literally rot my brain so much that i will only function with them. 

at the moment, i can only clean, study and focus with MCR, whether that be videos, music videos or music. i can also only sleep if i have watched saw and listened to helena on loop. again obviously this is different for everyone. some hyperfixations have changed my life and view on everything.

how this occurred

because of saw i have seen a greater outlook on life, i cherish my life and don't mope around. MCR has saved me multiple times at my lowest. i owe my life to MCR. 

certain people i would like to thank:

- amanda young (MY GF!!!) for: being the realest and most relatable character.

- gerard way for: being so open about everything.

- frank iero for: making me realise i can do whatever i want a million times over.

- mikey way and ray toro for: simply existing in MCR and making it what it is today.

why i think my brain latched onto these

MCR has been a major part of my life since 2019 (just as they returned) and somehow i fell into the MCR / frerard loophole and it spiralled from there. they were always the band i went to when i felt down and closed off in myself. when i was confused or feeling as if i couldn't cope anymore.

Saw was always in my life because it was something my mum collected for the longest time and i just recently watched it after finding edits on tiktok. i now basically live and breathe saw. it's my favourite franchise and i would defend everyone with my life. (and john reminds me of my dad)

endings

this is everything i have to say on this matter. thank you for reading.

xosage