Dear brain of mine...(!!TW!! mentions of SH)

Why don't you shut up?, you are constantly running on and on about things that shouldn't matter. Things that shouldn't bug us. Why don't you stop overthinking for just a moment and rest? You constantly keep me awake at night, you don't let me focus on my work , you don't even allow me to remember important things because of all your nagging. "What did he mean by that""were they being sarcastic"" do they really mean that""shit why did we say that""have they eaten" Like please just shut up I hate that you are constantly thinking. You make the heart ache with all these insecurities and negative thoughts you make us so anxious and you are corrupting our health. Oh my dear brain I love you but you are going too far, "why don't we start doing it again..." NO "just a little won't hurt" NO "What if we go back to it" NO "but it used to help us escape" I SAID NO, you are harming us and we are trying to get better but we cant if you keep making us hate ourselves. You hurt us everyday and you don't even see it "Well I am not the eyes of course I do not see it" You know what mean by saying it. I want you to shut off but that would be ending it all and we cannot have that. "Why not, it's not like anyone wants us" SEE You make us so gloomy and it's time to stop! We must love ourselves and we must think positively "Why if this earth is already dying, dying from all the negativity of other, why not add one more" That's why we must be different we have to stay positive to save ourselves and this planet. "I won't make no promises but ill try to be more, more for us and the benefit of health and for the ones around us." Thank you my dear brain..I Love You, even with all your negativity ill push for us to be better as well and I'll take care of us more. I appreciate what you have gone through for us my dear brain.