frustrastaresddddd

i can't stop feeling this thing or habit that i ve adapted that i'm in public eye all the time, every time i act do things always thhought comes in mind like how would i ve reacted i ve done like this there etc.. i been year since i ve started to feel like i always try my best to like not get drownn in thoes scenarioes but it's hard to comeout once u get in, idk if this is being extemly self concious or getting high without drugs.

also i don't understand the loudness of inner voice and unwareiness of my decision.