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i wonder will it ever be enough i look around at my room this house and town and will it ever be enough will i ever be satisfyed and how is that possible? i can tell im going to have a episode again because i look in the mirror and i don't know who i am looking at a lair with no money no future who is just trying to get trough her day its hard for me too make plans and see a future but why why does the world have to be grey to me it doesn't matter were i am even the other side of the world it's always there and i am just making a fool of myself for thinking i am happy how do people do it wake up and be happy i can find some joy in watching bojack horseman geuss watching people be as lonely and empthy is kinda nice
i have a change to go on a date but why would i boughter i don't want anyone to see the reall me because i am not here just empty and i feel nothing it's weird how one moment life can feel full of joy and in a split second i feel nothing and i just wanne die i don't want someone to deal with this problem just because i wanne exprience somthing that feels like love
i thought the way to be happy is to move on but it's not real moving on youre just distracting yourself from the problem, pain and you think youre happy
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Maqsud101
We have a congenital defect; We all think we are born to be happy. Unless we correct this defect, the world will appear to us as a place full of contradictions. Because in every step we take, whether we have done something big or small, we will realize that the world and human life is not designed to allow us to live a happy life. That is why it is possible to see the same expression, namely disappointment, on the faces of all old people. - Arthur Schopenhauer