#4

i havent been able to stop thinking about jonah and its really starting to get under my skin. i keep unlocking memories of all the shit he did to me and im over it now but im still sore. i wish i could recover faster.

with that out of the way, i dyed my hair for amity but not all of it took, so thats upsetting, and i fell asleep through dinner and i didnt wake up until 9 pm so now im gonna be up all night. maybe i can get some writing done, but idk. im really frustrated w the fact that i cant do my hair by myself and have it come out the way i want. if i used box dye im sure itd be a different story but for now im very upset. 

i think im emotionally drained. my niece has been getting on my nerves a lot more than usual, ive been rly short w the people that annoy me at work (its only one person really but still), and i think i just.... really need a day to myself entirely. i shouldnt call out of work but i feel like that might be a good idea? i could say i have a migraine. i dont even think liz works tomorrow. idk. im very stressed