this sucks

ok so. i got suspended from school for vaping, i have to go to court and everything. all of my friends hate me, me and this guy ended, i really liked him too. i went to the doctor yesterday and she asked me all kinds of questions, i answered them all honesty, then i started to cry, like really hard. i told her abt the SH and the sewerslide things. now i have to go see a physiatrist and probs have to go to inpatient care. im so scared and im so alone. i just need someone to be there for me. thats it for rn ill update when i can.