10/17/22, 23:58

i dont want to die. i dont want to grow anymore. even now, i wish i was a child again. im happy here, but i dont think its registered that im not a child anymore. my mother wont ever hold me like that again. my brothers will never dress me in their clothes again. i wont play ghost in the graveyard again, sprinting tree to tree, only worried about my friends mom calling the landline saying shes coming to pick her up. when did i grow so old? how will i grow older? i hope to never age. i dont want to get a job, or grey hairs. i miss worrying about winning field day, the pizza prizes, eating in classrooms on rainy days. my mind is still 8, and my body will refuse to age. time will never get me the way it got my mother, my father, and my brothers.