Feeling like a “the Cranberries” kind of day..

I’m feeling kind of heavy and nostalgic…

I want to take the time to absorb old memories. 

Good and bad, memories that will soon drift away until they become faint thoughts. As if I suddenly became an old woman with dementia.

But would losing my memory even be a bad thing? 

.. I mean.. when ever I think on past memories, it puts me in a state of reminiscent. Constantly thinking on how much better my life was, how truly happy I used to be. It makes me miss it all.  

So would it be better if it just disappeared?.. If I constantly move forward, with only the memory of things I learned. things that make me grow, rather than hold me back.

Would I still be the same version of myself?.. 

Would it change me for the better?..

Idk.. 

Until then.. I’ll just listen to “the Cranberries” to aid the heavy and nostalgic feeling.