i feel broken

i'm tired of this numbness inside of me. the distance between myself and the world, the silent barrier that makes everything behind it look fuzzy and strange. i feel as though i am slowly going insane. i am living— living?— on autopilot, barely processing anything and simply moving my legs mechanically from one point to another. the feelings i feel are muted and artificial. they don't come from my core, there is no fire stoked, no passion. and when i do manage to feel something, it dries up by the end of the day and blows away in the wind. what is wrong with me? i can't take anymore of this.