betrayal

Hi to whoever is reading this, i feel like there's been nothing to add to my diary lately but i don't want to stop my mini series or diary or whatever so i thought maybe i'd engage more with everyone that sees my blog.

I wanna talk to you guys about something because i've been thinking a lot about it. i had a fallout with my best friend bc she betrayed me, my trust and our friendship and it's been a little over seven months. she recently came back to me asking to be friends again. now my question is why should i let her back in my life after everything she's done?? so i told her that i don't see the point in being friends again and that i would be betraying myself and all the pain i went through in some sort of way. but i feel like i've made it worse by telling her this because i feel like now she's starting to be obsessed with me, my life and my boyfriend which i dont appreciate 😃

it makes me feel really uncomfortable because she's made it pretty obvious that she "likes" my partner (i dont think she actually likes him i just feel like she's trying to be included in my life so she's trying to get in the way of my relationship just to be in my life in ANY type of way, good or bad yk?) but thats besides the point.

So since i told her that i dont want anything to do with her she got "mad" at me. so i guess what i'm trying to say is why do people want to come back in your life when you're better off them and they know it? like i feel like it would be common sense or maybe the bare minimum not to expect the other person to welcome you with open arms so the least u can do is not be mad about a consequence to your own actions and just own up to the fact that you screwed up.

anyways i don't want to overthink this too much because i dont want to give her whats she wants and i'm certainly not gonna doubt my choices.

has this ever happened to you? and how did you manage it? any advice is welcomed <3