The weekend

So me and my friends went to the park and got high asf. We had my little brother with us and left kinda high. We weren't where we were when we left but we were not sober. But yeah we walked to the park with my little brother and didn't have any issues. we walked to the gazebo and let him go play, when we got to the park, we smoked more and ate some edibles. We were eating and I like this kid, we'll call him E. So me, E, and our friend Nat are just there hanging out at the park getting high and I don't know how I brought this up or how any of us ended up bringing this up but E says this random thing, he says "You know I don't know if I like men or not. I like this one guy and the other one I like isn't even a real guy genetically.". I am the only person that he knows that is trans so that shit had me taken aback but ofc because I wasn't paying that much attention and just a little bit, I didn't really know what to say either way. Like I honestly love this kid so much but in the same way I do kinda feel bad that I didn't say anything back or after that. When we got back to my house with everyone, we ended up going back to my room and when we did that I kept thinking about that but I ended up laying next to him and drawing on him sometime before we went to bed. He was talking to me and I asked him if I could draw on him and he told me sure. So I just sat there on my bed for like an hour and a half. I stopped for a few minutes during the beginning and he asked me if I was still drawing on him, when I told him that he was like "That's very unfortunate, please keep drawing on me". Like bro that is one of my favorite things to do is draw the same thing over and over again and also to draw on people that I like. That shit is so fun to me. But he's the only person that I keep zoning out on when I get high and it's because I'm usually thinking about him. I really like E. I honestly should ask him out. I'm being serious but like I only get to see him in the mornings and during the end of school. Me and him have last period together everyday. I honestly think I should ask him who he likes and make him tell me and then tell him. I'm just really nervous because knowing my luck I'm just being super delusional and all of this shit is in my head but I have no idea. I really need to ask him in the morning and see what he has to say about it. I really want to tell him that I like him but in the same way I don't. I feel like Nat is hiding something from me. Not about white but because she put me and him in a call together and just left and put in our group chat, "love birds need time together". Like bitch, I keep trying to tell her that I don't know what to do if he doesn't like me, like bruh, the way that everything is right now is so odd. It's like I'm living life again. I am in such a deep trance with E. He is so cute to me and it's so funny because he doesn't bother me when he hates me or anything like that. I get it, but I care about him so fucking much that it's unreal. I honestly really need and or should ask him about who he has a crush on. I'll end up asking him eventually. I'll have to think about this. But at school on Friday, I was so high like my eyes were so red it was unimaginable. The entire time to when we got on the bus and until our teacher started the lesson he was trying to get people away from me and kept telling people that I was high asf. I didn't really care but in the same way I was in my JROTC uniform so common me L but that shit was fun. I swear to god the entire class knew about it, I swear I really do love E though. I remember that before I told anyone about anything, someone did ask me if I liked E. I told them that I might, and then the next day a bunch of things went down that I don't want to completely explain but it will be okay. I honestly am really happy about the way that everything is now but in the same way, it's the first time that I'm really starting to fall back in love. Like I honestly really miss my ex-girlfriend. But yeah, that's my little weekend