realizastion

hmmm thinking i'll be happy if i keep foucosing on goal was never truth, but people did achived it tho and my n self is made to fit in society's view after all, ha i forgot happiness is something my life is not allowed to ve until it's with my love, only they are the people i desever to smile in front of. every day is just me realizing why i need to leave this house asap, well nothing much to rant, coz i forgot again fuck my memory, today i h8ed myself more than ever and it time to work on plan which i have been waiting since last 2 years, and why the fuck camera can capture the rich of blood that's on my hand, and fuck my having such good coltting system in me