Blep

It's a new week

Autumn break is over

I have to go to school 

Ain't fun at all

Also kinda questioning if I'm actually nonebinary or genderfluid 

I've been saying that I'm none binary for most of my life at this point although a big portion of my childhood I always felt that I was a guy and not a girl(what I was born as)

But when I was just getting into middle school I came out of the closet as Trans but the response was ... bad to say the list 

Even my own mom who am the time actually loved me and claimed to support the lgbtqia+

Rejected me coming out told me I was just confused and that and I quote "no you can't be a useless man don't be like your bad father be a girl like your mother be someone who is actually worth something" I argued with her for 3 years about me being a Trans man and her not accepting at all when I got to high-school when I asked the teachers to used he/him for me they just laughed at me and during the first year ridiculed me 

So I kinda run away from it and came out as nonebinary and my life got a bit easier at home although my mom's mental abuse still continues to this day. The teacher's left me alone after that although they still treated me and my classmates as infants just cuz of our autism so there was a lot of conflict in that regard 

To this day I admit I'm kinda running away from who I probably am 

I was so traumatized about it that I still can't accept myself and I really don't know anymore 

Damn I kinda vented 

Oh well

Blep