09/18/22, 22:00

i feel gross. i hate that my automatic response to affection or people caring is feeling gross. i want to be loved i want friends to care it's just everytime i start getting closer and closer to ppl the more i want to shut ppl out. it's like all the sudden i get a stomach bug; my chest feels like it's being weighed down by stones, like my ribs are cracking and being crushed. my stomach gets all swirly and floppy and my head starts banging and mt throat tightens up, like i'm going to be sick