Life rant

I’m currently sitting in my car waiting for class to start. I always get anxious when I get here early, lol. Also, I was pissed cus I bought the wrong hot pockets. I warmed one up before I left THINKING they were the pizza ones and they weren’t. 😕. Very disappointed. I’ve been having a rough 3 weeks, my uncle just passed away. He was my mom’s uncle, closest thing she had to a father, and closest thing I had to a grandfather on her side of the family. I cried once when he was in the hospital but I refused to cry or talk about it again, but yesterday I was talking to my girl and that topic came up, I started bawling. I love my uncle. I will miss him sincerely. He was a good man, a great man. I had a panic attack while crying it got really bad. I always suppress my feelings when it comes to deaths in my family. I just have a complicated time when I try and deal with it, it just conjures up other feelings and it becomes too much.