Vent ig

Yeah so i'm rlly not doing good. I'm strugglin alot with my mental health and everything is just getting so much and i feel like i'm falling back into that place i tried so hard to get out of and it just hurts. I know no one will see this which is why i decided to blog here because i just need to get this off my chest.

i feel like i'm pushing everyone away even though i don't want to. i push away the ones i love the most even though i don't want that.

ptsd fucking sucks. why did they hurt me like that? why can't i just have a normal family? i don't want any of this trauma. i'm so fucking tired and about to fucking give up :(