Spirling

I think i'm going fucking insane. All my friends suck. nothing feels good anymore. I broke up with him. and then I saw my ex on the same day. (last friday 9/9/2022) what the actual fuck is wrong with me. I keep crying. Not out loud but just tears come down my face one at a time. No one cares about me. Why doesn't anyone care about me?  no one talks to me, or helps me. I don't feel happy anymore. It's not like I really did before. but i was way happier before. I mean not even my own parents care. WHY. this is so fucked up. I hate you so much. I hate this so much. more or less

I hate myself for getting into this mess.