09/10/22, 00:33

I've noticed i cry less. i get sad a lot, but dont cry. i end up just laying there, tired, an aching feeling in my chest. it feels like im gonna cry, but nothing comes out. i try curling up into a ball to get rid of the pounding emptiness in my chest, but it never works. i need to feel alive. i need to feel my blood pump through my veins, rushing to my head. i need that lightheaded, sweaty feeling, noise pounding in my brain. im tired of just laying here, not even able to cry. my heart is starting to hurt from this loneliness.