falling in love again

the way she viewed the world was as beautiful as she was. the way the world treated her was ugly, gross, depressing. even after everything and all the things she fought through, even after all her traumas she still viewed the world with an amazing gaze no one can see. her imagination was big, her eyes, her smile, she was the sweetest most purest thing. but she has gone through too much hurt that she started to change. hating everyone, distancing herself, wanting to be alone. she has changed. she has matured. the world was never nice to her. and today was when she knew. shes been lost. the same routine repeats everyday. she lost hope. does she still have love in her heart? yes. i still do. but it hurts. will i find myself again? i hope so. i still have hope even if I'm feeling hopeless. i want to fall in love with life again. i know im capable of amazing things. i know i can do this. I want to buy myself flowers and take myself out on a date and read books. i got this. with the people im surrounded with i know i can grow. i want to be me. i want to show everyone that you can do it too. you can believe in yourself too. low self esteem and low confidence can ruin many things but when you spend time with yourself everything changes. when you listen to the music you love and adore, when you draw on your notebook, when you breathe the fresh air outside on your yard, when the sun hits your skin lightly like a kiss. that's when you know you'll fall in love with life again. when you view yourself as a separate person deserving of love.