Tired but motivated - Entry 12

Okay so I made a few dumb mistakes at work today which sucks bc even the slightest screw up makes me doubt everything so that's great. I also have 4 shifts next week which isn't bad im just hoping I can stay motivated. I'm slowly getting use to everything I guess. Sometimes I still feel overwhelmed but that's okay. Im bound to be with the little change in my life. Well I say that but this year alone has been full of changes. I guess its all catching up to me. I'm excited for college. I want to get back to that normality. I'm also thinking of starting a prodcast. Ive realised when I talk to myself I acc say some interesting things so why not. Its dumb ik but it sounds fun so idc. I think im going to re watch gfn. In bed. And ill also be thinking of my fictional crush. ive just realised: ive never gone a day without thinking of him. damn that's a bit sad the dude aint even real. oh well it keeps me sane I guess so ill keep doing it. Im also happy to say ive found a new makeup look. I loveeeeee it. I just need to the money to buy the makeup. I have a 5 hour shift tomorrow so I'm gonna make sure I get some well earned rest. This week coming is going to be quite the week. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing yet. But I must remember that everyday is a blessing. Im lucky and I have a pretty okay life. apart from the fact I feel like im going to end up alone in life or the fact that I can't decide if that's a good or bad thing. whatevs goodnight.