last week of summer break

I'm excited to go back to school. But why did it have to end. everything comes to a end. like this summer. I feel like 2 years ago i was taking a few weeks off when i was in 5 grade. But now i'm almost done with middle school. next year is highschool and it's honestly really scary. I can't wait to go and see everyone again. I want to be a better human being this year. especially since I was a big emily and was really annoying. I feel like  i finally have a style and personally. I know who i am i have everything that i could possibly need. but then why do I still feel like shit? I should be happy right? I don't really know what i'm doing. But lying to myself helps me cope. why am i even doing this. i always question things around me. why does this have to end. why did it have to go and die so quickly. I guess life is like a picked flower. It gets picked and wilts over time. the kind of funny. but then it always seem to be like that in the end.........