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THERE IS JUST LOADS OF SUPEREGO ON MY BLOG
"lazy"
"procrastinating"
"every comment I'll get 100 xp on duolingo"
but I feel as though I'm a 9w8 because of my sluggishness and stubborness and qualities of rejection. I'm also just super sloppy and don't appear like my 9w1 peers (who I am relentlessly jealous of), and can't stand to live by an organized, successful "aesthetic" for more than two days (but I also just hate aesthetics in general).
I just know nothing about the enneagram. I may be a 9w1 963 I just actively hate life and refuse to participate in that way
my guess right now is 9w8 963 (874) or 9w8 964 (873)
it also literally doesn't help that 9w1 is associated with a thin, helpless, fainting maiden and 9w8 is associated with like, thick strips of meat. "the appetite" vs "the dreamer 🥺"
which btw, nothing about a thin, helpless, fainting maiden is attractive to me. but also I feel too groundless to really be "meat" or an immovable rock.
LOLLL I just want to do inner work but can't identify with one wing without missing something from the other one. like I probably very much am a 9w8 but can't ignore that I don't feel worthy to exist around others because of how far I deviate from "perfection." I guess my coping mechanism is further isolation and dissociation through the body so that's probably where the inner work is. besides, 1ness is an inner sense of perfection, not an external one.
ok I'm a 9w8 with an unignorable 6w7 fix goodbye
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ac3tilena
yeah bro clearly 9w8
thank you for this comment
by Sheep; ; Report
you re welcome man
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