older than i think younger than i know

just got back from salem and a weekend with my best friend. this is the last time i will see her in a very long time. im trying not to think about it as i already have too many things i am thinking about. i feel so incredibly tired it's not funny in the slightest. im not sure why theres this heaviness behind my eyes, i slept an ok amount last night. yesterday we hate watched the summer i turned pretty, a show in which the main character is really unlikeable and really stupid. it feels weird that im now older than most teen protagonists in romance movies and shows. makes me realize how young these characters are. this girl was 15 turning sixteen and shes stressin about her family friend who is 18 girl STAND UP!!!!!!