boy o boy

we had the same interests and in 1st grade that was basically any and all personality you had developed 

so what u liked generally determined who you would be friends with

kids don't have a superimposed sense of gender then. i mean there is the bass stuff that's basically programmed into them by the time they are born but it's not very structured and it's easy to bend

but then the worst possible thing happened 

puberty 

suddenly i was shoved into being a girl

100billion% more gender stuff is shoved down your throat 

to be clear i did like girl things but i had to learn to like them and the fact that things even determine a certain gender is possibly the worst things humans have done (exaggerating obvi) 

if it were up to me gender would not be a thing it's so weird and i hate it 

it's embarrassing to not fit into these lame made up boxes that everyone seems to thinks is written in scripture from the gods 

i'm a dude but i'm not a dude but i'm not a girl but it's easiest to be a girl because that's what meat suit i got slapped with but i'm just not that either and i don't hate my body i just hate that it's tied to something i'm not somethings that doesn't represent how i feel or what i like or who i talk to in this stupid box that i don't even care about anyways i only care because other people make me care

ughhhgg

shit is weird 

toodles4now~~~