I'm scared.

the longer i think about it, the more upset i get. i know i'm gonna have to live on disability benefits when i get older because i dont wanna be dependent on my family forever but my autism/adhd/ocd combo (the holy trinity of neurodevelopmental disasters) makes me unable to function in any kind of high stakes situation. Like. i can't always talk, and when i do, it's totally exhausting. i'm messy, sensitive, extremely compulsive, socially unskilled, childish, and generally in need of copious assistance. I would be a catastrophic burden to any workplace. However, I don't know how to make the government believe that. Maybe i should just ask for disability documentation at my treatment center. I don't know. im so so so scared. and to think that my family expects me to go to graduate school?!?!?!?! NO FRICKING WAY!