thought 1 am

be honest with me did you even miss me did you even care i wanted to fucking kill myself and you all left im not trying to get attention i just needed a hug what did i ever do to you i don't see the point anymore in being here it all feels fake this is the reason i don't stay up after one because i realize things i realize that i don't wanna be here anymore i keep trying to find a reason to stay but how long till they leave right i don't see a point what's there left for me nothing there really isn't if i can't be happy here how can i be somewhere else i don't want my happiness depending on someone else i want to be gone but then i think of them and they saved me but for how long can a person be saved?