new crush

feelings what do you do with them, I hate myself sometimes for having them. I am confused if been crushing on this boy for kinda somewhile right now and one of my so-called friends told him too not to react to my pictures cus I fall in love quick what a shitty friend it's so weird like why would you say that she looked me in te eye and said that like it was normal and make me feel guilty for having crushes like exciouseme even if I liked everyone who cares its no one bisnuss but anyway this not what I wanted to say I have him for some while right now on my snap but the last couple of days we been snapping a lot I really like the feeling when we snap and he is cute but now I keep seeing him every where its anoying haha like why it's not like I want him on my mind al the time but it keeps happening he was in the car and a girl stood beside him just talking if it even was him he doesnt have a driving license but yet he still drives what a world we live in haha its just that i have been told that he is not serious when it comes to girls and its the best to not fall in love with hime but i like having crushes and imagining its helps me fall asleep faster is it bad that i really wanne fuck him i want more dont get me wrong but he is not serious so im trying to keep it out of my mind its not gonne happen this is not going to end in a realtionship but hey try to tell that too my heart the stupid bitch she is what if he saw me too its soo awkard because i was biking and i didnt know something else I don't think if been doing great these past weeks I've never done hookups and know I have started I like that but it's weird like I have no feelings doing it not how i imagine it was gonne go getting personale with someone its not that i dont like it i do i think that is the problem but there is also no problem cus im not doing anything wrong im thinking too much hahah lets just live and see were this goes im just not juse to someone liking me back but hey whatever will happen it's going to be a learning excperience