another day

so I think I officially started my new season I do not have contact with some people I thought I never wanted to lose but I think that's where it went wrong they felt like I needed them but the truth is I'm not going say they needed me but that's also not a lie I feel like we needed each other but they saw it as I needed them for advice or anything but I think the truth is when I feel like the friendship is dying I try to keep contact with you with everything I can so I think that's why i ask for advice to keep in touch if I miss the person it's weird seeing them the people I first felt like I never wanted to lose i was so excited to spend the summer with them  but I don't know what's happening but everything is going easy I don't wanna say I'm talking to someone yet but maybe I am you never know I think he is cute but if heard that he is not serious but I don't care who says I am I kissed two boys in two days I never kiss someone it's going quick I'm just living and not missing them well excelly one person but I saw him the other day and he walked past me like I wasn't there I think she finally did it her toxic behavior and the lies she tells I think they believe her but, to be honest, I wanna thank her for that I don't need  them I think I'm better of without them if they believe the lies I'm 100%  better of it's fucked up how it went but it didn't have to go that way if they just communicated it kinda hurt seeing that there more excited to see my mom even trough all the memories we made I deserved better they feel like there so good but they caused my mental health problems made everything worse i like this new me and i love how i don't have them in my life anymore