part 1 new beginings

So as I am sitting at the airport I realized what an awesome 4 weeks it had been and I am very lucky to have this kind of people in my life it is more than what I expected since I lost the feeling of the family back in my country it was nice to have the connection after 8 years I realized the family that does love me back in my country I still have and I love them but I'm miserable in my country I see a future there where I alsom see a purpose something worth fighting for I have something here that will make me feel rich something lovely and special its hard to give up on gold so why would I right? I'm gonna keep digging for better ones my future is here not back in holland I did miss my garlic sauce though i'm not gonna lie I hated the person that I am becoming back there and I love the person that I'm becoming over here in Australia I can’t wait to figure out what I can become I accepted that its okay if I'm the first week depressed its normal to be sad I'm gonna make sure that the next time I come back it's gonna be better I'm working on my driving license going to the gym getting that education maybe start for help asking if I can move in 3 years to Australia it's nice having a purpose I don’t think people understand I wanted to kill myself but look at me the purpose found me its a great feeling knowing that I grew so much that the people who did me wrong don’t even know me anymore I'm a changed person a better one. One they don’t deserve and will never know. my favorite quote goes ones you give up everything only then you can find a way to be happy I left everything behind wanting to end it all and I found my happiness my peace my reason to live it’s something I'm very blessed to have i am gonna miss them more than i missed my own family back home truth is i don't wanna go home think you figured that one out yet but I'm gonna work on myself and make sure I have another chance

Of coming here again I really wanna go back in December