downer

Sup everyone! It’s been a while, i would say it’s because i’m busy or something but then i’d just be lying. I’ve been kind of down for a while now, i hate admitting it because it makes me feel guilty, i do have my good days but when i have my bad days they feel so heavy, i know i should go to therapy but i always just ignore it. My gf is always checking up on me and trying to get me to do what’s best for me like find a therapist and i want to but it kind of scares me. I couldn’t really tell you WHY it scares me, but it does. I think it’s beyond just me being scared, i am beyond my own repair and need to get help before it ruins all the good things i still have, like my relationship and my will to go to school.