Too Closely

I've realized that I read into things too much.

Ask me about anything, simple or complicated.

I'll always have a complex answer.

Not complex in the way a dictionary makes a word seem more difficult than it actually is

But complex in the way my heart is

Being complex doesn't always mean confusing

Despite the fact I can be sometimes

Complex in the way I have strong feelings for small, and simple things

Like not going to bed angry,

Saying I love you every time we've got to leave

Checking on one another once they've been gone a while

For much longer than anyone else,

You've dealt with me, willingly might I add

My complexity

My annoyance

My hurt

My love

My cry

My laugh

I'm glad I've found someone who can live in the buzz of my daydreams

But can also be here in reality when my nights aren't as perfect as you

I've found someone who has made me happy but makes me feel safe,

I don't need destructive things to keep myself occupied

For a while,

I was afraid of finding this person

I tend to attract people who prioritize a good time over love

I attract people who use me for what they need, thank me for the fun, then leave

Like how a fly gravitates naively to light not knowing their last breath may not be that far away

You are like a fence

One where sometimes you'd like to jump over,

But still for the sake of you, and I

I refrain from giving in to things that will wrap me up in a spiral that i've just gotten out of

I've learned what it means to love loudly, then quiet down

How you've declared your genuine love for me but can still do little things

Loving softly,

I think of appreciating how you'd probably forget your keys every morning and say goodbye twice

I think of doing the dishes before out get home

All so you can feel the comfort you gave me

From not having to worry about anything but relaxation and love

I read into that way too much,

But reading into things isn't that bad

I see the beauty and the opposite in a lot of things others see plainly

But my favorite part of reading into things too closely,

Its reading into you and seeing nothing but genuine care

Knowing that the feeling is mutual.

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