buzzy

yesterday i registered for my college classes. im really only excited for one of them, which is a little concerning, but i am excited to get to college none the less. i am getting very tired of the inbetweeness of it all. i think i have said that here already. i think i have come to terms with the fact that i'll never be a kid again, but im sick of not yet being something else. technically im still in my teenagehood but i have only gotten to utilize that in short, specific instances, so i dont really count it. im not a teenager not a kid not an adult i just kind of feel like nothing. i know it wont but my brain is hoping that entering college and moving out will fix this. hopefully it will help. maybe ill become a teenager. my brain has been buzzing lately. i have a big traincase for under my bed in my dorm which im very excited to decoupage as thats my favorite hobby, however im making myself wait until after this biiiiiiig road trip im going on with my best friend as i will probably aquire things i want to put on it since im making it like. gay travel theme. this theme is hard to describe but its really specific in my brain and the pinterest board for it looks really good and i swear my brain is big and it will all turn out. but i cant wait to do it. i need to work on it i neeed too. i also need to get tattoos. my brain literally wont let me rest. but my brain also wont let me get a tattoo until i get my first one with best friend. if we dont get them on the roadtrip im scheduling an appointment with this artist in my area i really like as soon as i get home tho. i just want to crack the seal, in all aspects of my life.