I was wrong.

We broke up. I thought we were going to work through everything but I was wrong. I ruined it. I wasn't putting all of my effort into the relationship and that hurt him. I wish I did try harder. My parents won't let me do a lot of things and I know that if I could do those things then it would be different. It seems like history is repeating itself. He said that he still loves me a lot and I believe him. I wish he could just block me and pretend like I never existed to him. He told me that he still wants me in his life which means that he wants a friendship. I can't do that. My feelings will take forever to go away if we're constantly talking. He said he's hurt that I want to cut myself out of his life completely. I gave in and told him that we can stay friends. I just told my mom and I feel embarrassed. I want to go to sleep and forget about this whole thing. I hate my life and I wish my parents would take the leash off of me. I'm heading to bed. Thanks for listening to my ugly rant. Bye