acceptance of death, once again

i just realised two seconds ago that i don't replace broken things or don't bother to fix things like my phone/laptop, old clothes etc. because i never expect myself to keep going for much longer. 'it's not worth it, i won't be using it for much longer anyway' what?? who said that? this implies that i seek for replacement of said thing but i don't want to put effort/money into it because 1. i'm not worth it and 2. i'll die soon either way