beginning of a new chapter

so with school ending and everything i feel like i want to invest my summer creating better habits and a new routine for myself.

starting from the beginning of my day i'll go to work in the morning, i want to go to the gym almost everyday even if its just for a little bit.

i want to completely heal from my ed and figure out how to stop bingeing.

i want to start going to therapy again.

i want to have control over myself but not in eccessive and obsessive way.

i want to read one hour per day and clean my day a little everyday.

i want to cook more, start investing my time in new hobbies and keep myself busy if possible.

i want to travel, a lot. and meet new people, earn their cultures.

i feel proud of myself, because even if im not there yet at least im trying and i set my mind to become the version of myself i want to be.

im so proud of myself and i am grateful that i am starting to be a better person.

i am healing and growing and im unlearning some old habits.

i dont want to be fake and say 'yeah my life is always this good and i always feel super motivated'.

the truth is that its not always like this. i have days where icouldn't find the motivation even if the pope spoke to me and thats okay.

for example i have stopped going at the gym because i just didnt have the motivation anymore.

but i love the gym, i love everything about it so this is just me falling into my old habit of being lazy and not wanting to better myself.

so starting next week (i have a lot of things to do this week and i physically cannot go) im gonna renew my subscription and get my ass to the gym every single day.

and if i dont imma go and have some long a$$ hot girl walk.

Goshhhh i am so happy that i am changing, evolving and becoming also more self aware.

i still struggle with accountability and holding myself accountable if i make mistakes but it is something i am working on so i am proud of myself.

well enough with this, imma go take a quick shower, clean my room and then go to bed since it's 10:30 and yeah (im trying to sleep more)

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