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i have so much to say but cant form the words.

i want to be loved for whats inside me. i cant imagine hearing my words and seeing my heart and still choosing to use me for personal pleasure. putting selfish desires in front of another human soul. i dont understand. i dont understand how you can know me and not respect me. did you even listen to a word i said? or were you too focused on my body. my lips. my legs. too focused on your sexual desire to even hear the pain in my words, my life, my eyes. the fear in my touch. the hesitation in my words. you dont even notice. you dont even care. youre too important. you getting off is more important. more important than how i feel. my safety. my heart. 

whatever.

taking myself to cheesecake tonight and getting drunk.

ill update when i can. thanks for hearing me. it really does mean more than you know.

thank you

coraline