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however!!!

i had such a great night. ended up going out for drinks after work (at midnight because insanity, but i have the day off today so im chillin) and the guy took me to this amazing bar, we ended up staying until 3am, it was a blast. after i had a conversation with this random drunk dude that was talking to us, i thought about how amazing it was to finally feel like an adult. 2 am at a bar after work, talking to the other locals about town, complaining about tourists, i felt like a real person. which is hard for me. if u havent been able to tell i struggle with derealization/ the such, so it really meant a lot to me to just be treated like a normal person. it was amazing. usually when i go out i have a bunch of men eyeing me and hitting on me, and it didnt happen once. not ONCE! it was a miracle. it gave me hope again. maybe theres a chance that i can just live.

but yes. great night.

also insanely beyond hungover so  i need a bit. can barely focus lmao, but wanted to update.

thanks for being here. truly.

xx