[CW venting]

man recently the only thing my brain has been thinkjng about is that one day I'll die and I can't do anything about it,, and it made me derealize so much,, I don't know if I'm real anymore,, It's so annoying, my mes are not helping me stop thinkinhg I hate it,, I know it will happen but I don't know what happens after and it scares me man,,