summer plans

and i say this with such firmness because i am whats gonna make it incredible.

i am working on myself and im trying to unlearn toxic coping mechanisms that i was basically forced to use in order to survive.

but now that i feel like im less in 'survival mode' i can finally heal myself and move on.

This summer is gonna be all about focusing on myself and discovering myself under all aspects.

i want to travel and learn new cultures, i want to be healthy (both mentally and physically), i want to exercise more, and read more, and go to the beach, start a pottery class, start working, start journaling, i want to meet new people, i want to feel more alive, i want to enjoy every single moment (the "bad" included).

i want to start doing the things i am afraid of doing because of the fear that other people will find out and judge me, but i am ready now.

i am ready to put myself out there and be exposed, be seen, be felt.

i am done living in fear, comfort.

this summer i am discovering what it feels like to be me.

not what other people want me to be, not how i want other people to perceive me, just me;

my truest and rawest self.